when sleep evades....

Its way past midnight.....the whole world (well, a good part of it ) is asleep and yet sleep evades me. Should i be complaining ?? Silence too is not silent.....u hear the most inconsequential of sounds, the humming of the air conditioner, the ticking of the clock......as if a world hidden in the daylight reveals itself in moonshine!!! It reminds me of a poem we read in school....slowly silently now the moon, walks the night in her silver shoon.....it kind of soothed me!!! I like the night, i like its darkness that envelopes us, i like the silence that relaxes us. I like the random thoughts.....but above all i like to wait for the first rays of the sun.....how the slumber lifts itself up and retreats.....

blogging again

I shall write shortly

guess who is back!!!

Writing in the blogsite is very similar to writing in your personal journal.....except that u cant keep ur blog all privy!!! so after quite a long time i am back again to blogland!!! A lot has happened over the past years....i finished my education, searched for a job and ended up getting a good one...now it has been almost 2yrs into the job and i love my work....i saved up enough money for a good vecation iv been planning and suceeded in getting one a few days back!!! went to europe for 17days....saw all the wonderful places iv read about and felt wat its like to travel alone far away from ur country and meet people so completely different from u!!!! so life has been kind to me afterall.....

wat does one write at a blogsite anyway....famous ppl write about their lives which is splendid to read, but my daily chores will bore a reader to death....writers with vivid imagination paint wonderful pictures with their words....but wat does a person as commonplace as me write??? Why will ppl give my blogsite a second glance, why will they go thru it....bcoz truth b told we all create blogs not only bcoz we luv writing but also bcoz we want to b read!!!!

So i decided i will write snippets about the various experiences i had in europe for the last 17days....it wont b extraordinary...many ppl go vecationing, but the reason i will write about it is very simple....these experiences r very spcl to me as is the trip....for this is the trip when for the first time in my life, aged 26, i finally went away from home....pathetic??? yes may be....but i dont care....i loved evey moment of it and il relive those days thru my space here!!!!

catching up......

its been a long tym since i last blogged.....a lot has happened from then till now....i passed the msc exams and failed to go to USA for phd.....am still trying hard to cum to terms with this fact.....its hard to tackle rejection.....more so when its absolutely not to be deserved!!!!but at the end of the day it all cums down to luck!!!!iv been grumbling about this sooo much dat now my family is fed up with me....so now il make my blogspot my official wallow site!!!!!i cant get enuf of wallowing....

tagging along......

A......the first alphabet,i luv words beginning with A.....
B......stands for being carefree...as free as a lark......BINDAAAS....and dats me....ekdum bindaas
C......camoradorie- good fellowship, there r a very few people with whom im on good terms,still i lyk the word...learnt in in GRE classes
D.....dreary....i hate people who r dreary!!!!
E......enigmatic, things that donot meet the eye...ellusive and mysterious........i lyk thinking about enigma
F....fantabulous...thats fantastic and fabulous......i havent used this word for such a long long time....cum to think of it, wen i was small everything seemed so fantabulous,but now.....the charm of day to day wonders are no longer there, maybe iv grown up
G.....great, sumthing thats good thats worthwhile that gives joy......is big is important.....lately iv become a great failure......i am great at brooding!!!!
H......stand for humor,,,,one loses everything when one loses his sense of humor.......i have it safe!!!!
I.....dats me.... I.....i luv the word I.....written in capital letter....makes me feel important.....I am the most important and the most luved person in my life(talk about self centerdness...lolzzz)
J.....jack of all trades,,,,i kinda lyk that,,,,it sure must feel good to know a little about everything.jack in the box.....my favourite toy.....wish i cud have one now!!!
K......kiss.....a luving kiss to soothe away those tears, to show the ur cared for,to assure that everything will be all rite.....sumtimes little things matter a lot
L.....luv......no one can live without luv,one lyf to live, one lyf to luv and be luvd....iv been blessed with that...tuchwood!!!
M....ma- the pivot of my lyf....she is the best.....peeche dunia rest!!!!
N.....numismatist.....i lyk this word...learnt it in the GRE classes
O.....omlette......cheese omlette...comfort food!!!!
P....phlegm.......i hate that....so do every1....yukkssss
Q.....queue.....u cannot avoid them newhere in india......all types of queue...i find them amusing,u get to meet all kinds of strange and funny ppl in the queue
R.....rest.....nuthing lyk it aftr a hard days work!!!!
S....swati.....thats me!!!!
T......thunder storms ans tea......both r my favs!!!!cant imagine lyf without ne of dem!!!
U......ubiquitous.....cant seem to remember wat dat word means
V.......valerie.....i luv dis name....if i ever hav a daughter il name her Valerie
W......window.....big wide windpws that let the fresh air in and the sunshine too...u get to c da whole world thru da windows.........french windows
X...X mas.......wen santa brings gifts!!!!
Y......year.............we just celebrated our bengali nu yr a few days bak....subho noboborsho all bongs out there!!!!
Z.......zeee........da end to a long list of alphabets.......luv da sound of it....zeeeee
i tag thunderer to list his A to Z alphabet listings!!!!!

the inscrutable americans....book review!!!

pals....do do do read this book!!!!! It was a long time bak that a frnd of mine lended me this gr88 book for a read....i liked it so much that i bought a personal copy of it!!!no....its not a oh so wonderful literary thing, its a very casual book with simple language but honest thoughts!!!! the protagonist is a real life small town guy who goes to USA for higher studies.....his letters to his younger brother are tear jerkers ( ur eyes will water ul laf so much)!!!!his thought process, his culture shocks and his analysis of what he sees in America and the Americans are matchless.....the book screams humor!!!!I was in a major bad mood all these days and thanks to Inscrutable Americans I am a whole lot cheerful now......whenever u feel the blues....go open the book and read what Gopal has to say!!!!!

today is sunday.......it is 12.27 AM so technically its monday now........i guess among the many uneventful days iv been having for the past few weeks this is the most uneventful one......i feel lyk im a 100 yrs old....im always tired and sleepy and do not feel lyk doing nething.....n just the fact dat im doing nuthing meaningful is driving me crazy!!!! I need to study for the NET exams,,,hell i need to print tne NET exam forms but i am not even doing that.......wat is wrong wit me....all i do is stare blankly at the TV all day long and sleep at odd hours.....im not even going to collg regularly.....i think im going mad......and writing sheer nonsense at this public site....maybe i will be banned from blogsite for all this gibberish......if this is not wat wasting away means....den i dont no wat it means at all....did the last sentence make ne sense????who cares......but i NEEDED to write this to keep myself going.......deres sumthing seriously wrong with me.......i need help.....god help me