catching up......

its been a long tym since i last blogged.....a lot has happened from then till now....i passed the msc exams and failed to go to USA for phd.....am still trying hard to cum to terms with this fact.....its hard to tackle rejection.....more so when its absolutely not to be deserved!!!!but at the end of the day it all cums down to luck!!!!iv been grumbling about this sooo much dat now my family is fed up with me....so now il make my blogspot my official wallow site!!!!!i cant get enuf of wallowing....

tagging along......

A......the first alphabet,i luv words beginning with A.....
B......stands for being carefree...as free as a lark......BINDAAAS....and dats me....ekdum bindaas
C......camoradorie- good fellowship, there r a very few people with whom im on good terms,still i lyk the word...learnt in in GRE classes
D.....dreary....i hate people who r dreary!!!!
E......enigmatic, things that donot meet the eye...ellusive and mysterious........i lyk thinking about enigma
F....fantabulous...thats fantastic and fabulous......i havent used this word for such a long long time....cum to think of it, wen i was small everything seemed so fantabulous,but now.....the charm of day to day wonders are no longer there, maybe iv grown up
G.....great, sumthing thats good thats worthwhile that gives joy......is big is important.....lately iv become a great failure......i am great at brooding!!!!
H......stand for humor,,,,one loses everything when one loses his sense of humor.......i have it safe!!!!
I.....dats me.... I.....i luv the word I.....written in capital letter....makes me feel important.....I am the most important and the most luved person in my life(talk about self centerdness...lolzzz)
J.....jack of all trades,,,,i kinda lyk that,,,,it sure must feel good to know a little about everything.jack in the box.....my favourite toy.....wish i cud have one now!!!
K......kiss.....a luving kiss to soothe away those tears, to show the ur cared for,to assure that everything will be all rite.....sumtimes little things matter a lot
L.....luv......no one can live without luv,one lyf to live, one lyf to luv and be luvd....iv been blessed with that...tuchwood!!!
M....ma- the pivot of my lyf....she is the best.....peeche dunia rest!!!!
N.....numismatist.....i lyk this word...learnt it in the GRE classes
O.....omlette......cheese omlette...comfort food!!!!
P....phlegm.......i hate that....so do every1....yukkssss
Q.....queue.....u cannot avoid them newhere in india......all types of queue...i find them amusing,u get to meet all kinds of strange and funny ppl in the queue
R.....rest.....nuthing lyk it aftr a hard days work!!!!
S....swati.....thats me!!!!
T......thunder storms ans tea......both r my favs!!!!cant imagine lyf without ne of dem!!!
U......ubiquitous.....cant seem to remember wat dat word means
V.......valerie.....i luv dis name....if i ever hav a daughter il name her Valerie
W......window.....big wide windpws that let the fresh air in and the sunshine too...u get to c da whole world thru da windows.........french windows
X...X mas.......wen santa brings gifts!!!!
Y......year.............we just celebrated our bengali nu yr a few days bak....subho noboborsho all bongs out there!!!!
Z.......zeee........da end to a long list of alphabets.......luv da sound of it....zeeeee
i tag thunderer to list his A to Z alphabet listings!!!!!

the inscrutable americans....book review!!!

pals....do do do read this book!!!!! It was a long time bak that a frnd of mine lended me this gr88 book for a read....i liked it so much that i bought a personal copy of it!!!no....its not a oh so wonderful literary thing, its a very casual book with simple language but honest thoughts!!!! the protagonist is a real life small town guy who goes to USA for higher studies.....his letters to his younger brother are tear jerkers ( ur eyes will water ul laf so much)!!!!his thought process, his culture shocks and his analysis of what he sees in America and the Americans are matchless.....the book screams humor!!!!I was in a major bad mood all these days and thanks to Inscrutable Americans I am a whole lot cheerful now......whenever u feel the blues....go open the book and read what Gopal has to say!!!!!

today is sunday.......it is 12.27 AM so technically its monday now........i guess among the many uneventful days iv been having for the past few weeks this is the most uneventful one......i feel lyk im a 100 yrs old....im always tired and sleepy and do not feel lyk doing nething.....n just the fact dat im doing nuthing meaningful is driving me crazy!!!! I need to study for the NET exams,,,hell i need to print tne NET exam forms but i am not even doing that.......wat is wrong wit me....all i do is stare blankly at the TV all day long and sleep at odd hours.....im not even going to collg regularly.....i think im going mad......and writing sheer nonsense at this public site....maybe i will be banned from blogsite for all this gibberish......if this is not wat wasting away means....den i dont no wat it means at all....did the last sentence make ne sense????who cares......but i NEEDED to write this to keep myself going.......deres sumthing seriously wrong with me.......i need help.....god help me

book review.....

my dear frndz gifted me with Ayn Rands Fountainhead for my birthday this year.....how nice of them!!!!I just finished reading it.......well for starters its definitely a good read.....i got to learn sum gr888 words some very interesting ways of putting simple thoughts across and the chemistry between the protagonist and his lady luv was a real treat.......but there are a few things i did not understand at all.......those who have read this book please comment on this post of mine and tell me what the Gail Waynand psychology was actually all about????I mean, yes he was guilty about what his Banner stood for and he tried to justify himself to Roark and Dominique-the people he luved and he was ,on the other hand ,not ashamed of Banner as well coz it was his brain child....i got that part, but his conversations with Dominique went over my head.......and Dominique????who has all the time and luxury to fall in luv wit sumone as amazing as Roark and then marry thrice, twice to punish oneself????how can a person possibly think of punishment when half of her time is being spent in the lap of luxury and most importantly with a person who is madly in luv with her......i think this character is vague!!!!Toohey.....wow!!!!Keating- scumbag and Katey-doormat!!!!Roark-reading about him made me feel the way i felt about Rhett Butler from Gone with the Wind.....a maverick.....everybody luvs a rebel.....author got that one right!!!!but the one thing that stumped me was the authors attitide towards public in general.......maybe she in her life b4 Fountainhead never got a chance of meeting people with rationale.......the world isnot as bad as that........there really is not a lot that is terribly wrong with it!!!!!

we went to the zoo.....

it is the beginning of summer....and possessed by some crazy idea to try and beat a sunstroke me and my dear frnd nafisa went to the zoo a few days back at 11 AM!!!!! boy....it was hot.....the sun was glaring angrily and the animals were busy napping.....but we really enjoyed a lot......we saw the monkeys ,the crocks ,the snakes....they were moulting!!!!! I for the first time saw a koyel in front of my eyes.....it was a nice feeling!!!!!!there were even a large number of bats hanging upside down from the trees....funny!!!!But the most precious thing that we got was childhood......remembered after so many years those days when each winter baba and ma used to bring me here....we had some qualtity time together......and then we grew up,zoo lost its charm....very few people visit the zoo these days,maybe air conditioned multiplexes are better alternatives....but to all the readers of my blog.....visit the place if you have some time to spare.....its a part of our citys heritage and i bet u will hav a good time!!!!some things never get old.....a day at the zoo is one such thing!!!!

wen the lights went out.....

today is the 6th of march and boy has the summer cum!!!!!its already swealtering hot as long as the sun is up there on the sky!!!!!!but the nights....aaaa....day r simply spiffing!!!!!today we had a power cut for about 3 hrs......during this tym i went up on the terrace.......it was a soothing experience.....looking over the dark streets and the little windows spilling candle light and casting long shadows on the walls.......it gives u a strange feeling of peace.....sumtimes a car goes by and the streets are momentarily lit up and then again darkness......u look up and c the sky full of stars, u feel the bats making sounds the gentle breeze relaxing your nerves!!!!u find peace and for a small moment u find yourself.....watever finding oneself means i dont no, but there is a bit of realization involved in solitary moments....sweet melancholy maybe.and when these moments r absolutely dark,quite literally,then day hav an even powerful impact.......the candle light and the long shadows........and then suddenly the lights came!!!!!the moment was lost.....but not forever.....it will cum again wit all its charm amd magic!!!!

my agonies......

today sudipta, my friend from college is getting married....quite literally speaking coz right at this moment maybe her actual tying the knot ceremony is going on......i had hoped to attend it....but i could not,not because i wasnt invited but because i came down with food poisoning.....this happens with me at all times,whenever i look forward to something, i end up not being able to take part in it at the end....talk about tough luck!!!!!i am feeling soo depressed.....all my frndz will be there and thay must be having a ball and i am stuck at home!!!!

introspection.....or something close to it

And I am back with all the gibberish that I had been storing up for all these days.......why are we so hard pressed for time????Makes me think about my school days......life then was so good.....the bus ride to school, the morning assemblies the classes we liked and loathed!!!!I still remember my last day at school,how our hearts skipped a beat when the final bell rang to the final class.....we looked at each other and mumbled- this is it.....the board exams,the long hard hours of study....the busting your back for a better future......all for what????Now at the fag end of student life,when I am just 6 months away from getting my final degree why is it that I do not feel satisfied???Why, still, I have doubts about what next???havent I done all that could possibly be done???I feel scared-just like that little girl who stepped into school for the first time,like that nineteen year old who stepped into a co ed college knowing not what to do next....scared even to ask someone where the depatment is.....now that I think of all those days I wonder how much I have grown.....and how much more I will have to grow up.....I will have to go away from my parents,earn my living,get married and most importantly have my own children.....hhmmmmppphhhh.....lots of work....and all I do is blog away.....grow up swati!!!!!lol

untitled........

i was preparing a power point presentation.......n den just turned on the internet and now again i find myself typing rubbish....will dis habit never end???wat am i supposed to write on a blog spot?poetry????story????wat is it????i dont no either.........so i guess i hav no option......

my first blog......

frm da time i was a little girl.....iv always wanted to b a writer...an author of masterpieces.......sum1 like enid blyton,j k rowling.jhumpa lahiri, agatha cristie.......da list goes on.....but i never cud raise my writing skills abv da bar of journal writing.....who wud read dat except me...lolzzz......den i thot abt blogging.......flaunting my penache.......my penache at writing rubbish.....hoping against hope dat while going thru my profile ppl may accidentally read all dats written....no blogged here!!!!!